One of my goals this year is to get more comfortable doing things alone, and to find my independence. Of course, I enjoy going out with friends and family, however I don’t want to feel like I can’t do something or go somewhere just because my friends or family may be unavailable to join me. I’ve always had that mindset, and it can feel very limiting. But really, the only one holding me back in those situations is myself.
So, I decided to try going for lunch on my own, which I never thought I’d be capable of doing. I was definitely a bit strategic in the restaurant I chose, but I think it’s okay to go with a comfortable option when trying to step out of your comfort-zone! I decided to go to An Chay because…
- I’ve been there a lot, so it feels very familiar and comfortable to me
- The guy who is always working recognizes my friends and I, so it’s nice to know I’ll see a friendly face
- It’s a pretty small restaurant, and has a pretty quiet and calm atmosphere, even if it’s a busier time of day
- I regularly see people eating alone there! So it feels normal for that restaurant
It wasn’t busy when I got there, so I was able to get a table right away without having to stand around waiting. I picked a table facing the windows so I could people-watch while I ate. Having my back to the restaurant was kind of nice as well, because I felt like I was in my own little world. I did bring a book to read while I sat and waited for my food, although I didn’t have to wait long, so I didn’t get too much reading done. But it was nice to have something to do other than scroll through my phone.
I did feel a little bit self-conscious at one point, but I reminded myself that if I don’t think it’s odd when I see people eating alone, then other people probably don’t think it’s odd, either. And if they do, well, why should I care? Thankfully, the self-consciousness didn’t last long, and I was able to properly enjoy my food without my other sense taking over and making me feel uncomfortable.
Overall, I really enjoyed the experience! I’m starting to learn to enjoy and value the time I have with myself, and I think it’s really good to spend time alone every now and again. Do I still love going for food with my friends? Absolutely. But I also love being able to feel comfortable spending time with myself as a form of self-care, too. Plus, I don’t want to miss out on an opportunity to enjoy delicious food if people aren’t able to join me!
I’m also incredibly proud of myself for stepping out of my comfort zone and daring to go eat alone in a restaurant! I truly never thought I’d have the self-confidence to do this, and it was a very liberating experience for me.
Until next time,
Nadine
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